YET WILL I TRUST
- DAY 251
- FAITH FILE: JOB
- SCRIPTURES: JOB 13:15
Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.
If I were Job and I had been in this terrible life situation this long, I probably would be struggling with depression by now. I don’t think I’m gonna want anything to do with God because this pain is just too much for one person to handle. It’s going to feel as if all hell is about to break loose on me. I may not go as far as saying I don’t believe in God anymore, but I doubt that I’m going to be so trusting of him. And I can say this emphatically because I have had a season in my life where I told myself, because of all these things I’m going through, God, stay your side. Me, I’ll stay my side. I know you exist but I’m just gonna come talk to you when I feel like I need something. I don’t I can trust you with my life anymore because you betrayed me.
Although I believe I’m wiser now and my response may be different because of the things I’ve learned so far, I still find it fascinating that Job could say in the midst of all this pain that still trusts God. Do you know what it feels like to be slain? This is not the recent slang that means to dress nicely. To slay means to literally kill. Like, your life is under negotiation. Everything in your life that could go wrong has gone wrong. And this man is saying, even if God does that to me, I will still trust him. This is what it means for your love to be grounded in who God is and not what he gives.
Trust Check
Beloved, if everything goes haywire right now, where will your trust be? Would you still trust God to be faithful or will you join the gang of, “if God is good, why am I going through all of this?” Would you still have the confidence to say “I am on the Lord’s side?” Or would you move on? What is going to be your response should you go through a though-He-slay-me season in your life? And if that season were to last longer, what would be your response? Because I know of people who have gone through alot and still stayed with God. An example is my mama. While I lost my faith a blamed God for taking my sister home, she judged God faithful, even though it was her child.
God is faithful. His nature is pure. His love is unending and His faithfulness is ever sure. You can trust, depend, and count on Him even when you cannot trust, depend, and count on anything else. He is with you; He is for you; He will never, I mean, never ever leave you.
Shalom.
